Friday, October 24, 2014

Healing Takes Courage

Dear Mr S,
(in response to :

Strategies for Prevention-Oriented Societies

Where you live could impact the state of your physical and mental health.

The National Prevention Council (NPC) chaired by the US Surgeon General, identified strategies for "prevention-oriented societies" in its 2014 National Prevention, Health Promotion, and Public Health Council Annual Status Report.  This report highlights progress in implementing the National Prevention Strategy and reaching its goal of increasing the number of healthy Americans at every stage of life. Since many of the strongest predictors of health and well-being fall outside of the health care setting, the Strategy envisions a prevention-oriented society where all sectors contribute to the health of individuals, families, and communities. Download the Report."....

What a sad, side stepping report. 

Aren't we mature enough as a species, to face the really big bogeymen?  You know, the ones hidden under the cloak of protection the early bullies (elite) donned back when the god/kings/queens had ultimate power"? I am thinking we just assumed they had the right stuff to go with it, gods will and all that.  

Then when such abusive power became intolerable, the masses (people) revolted and a new leader stepped up. Like Napoleon called himself an emperor because he was not a king, The king was like bad -right? 

But revolts were merely adaptive measures, the ideology was/is massaged, but so far has not been ripped apart to analyze the whole from multiple perspectives, until now.

When seen in the realm of personal development, our culture appears to have maintained an early ego construct. The facade is crumbling.. The adaptations throughout history - religious,  political, social, corporate-  all maintained hierarchy, which is a  competitive notion swathed in limited access "regulations and rules," making it lossy. It strangles innovation other than that which suits its own purposes!

The ladder of rewards is used to create that "something to lose" sweet spot (Howard Zinn, The People's History of the United States) that stops the lower steppers from getting too close to the "top" as then the  middle protects the higher uppers. This protective device , this wall s both a barricade and a cage. No win!  

So even as the "winner take all" extremism is often touted and rewarded, it is just suicidal in the long run.  These silly, archaic and limiting notions of who "we " were taught to believe  ourselves to be, are from the myths, stories and ideas woven into our cultural narrative. They are difficult  to extract without focused effort and some really need extracting. 

What made the mess will not solve it. Even as we speak about community, connectivity and relationships we have a huge gap in understanding. Our emotional shadow world  has not been explored. This is half of the "who" we are. Our classic run from fear (pain) is why we are now stricken by the consequences of global warming, toxic newborns, numbers over humans, more dis-ease etc.  We have made a hellish mess of many things. We have been at war with life.
Now it is time to enter stage eyes open. It is time to learn to accept and understand the whole of life itself.  It is time to accept responsibility, to stop the justification and face saving- aka it is time to put on our grown up pants.

We (as a species) have to  go in and sort out the false beliefs from the brilliant threads of what we call tradition, heritage, history. Our collective and personal stories need a thorough sorting, clearing, cleaning and reorganizing. 

We need to heal. We need to be courageously willing to risk the unknown and leap into developing a future of remarkable  health and well being. We need to risk saving our lives, for if not now, when? 

What if we decide to  help each other reach maximal potentials? What if we really get how the sum of the parts are interrelated, are interactive and expansive -for this creates the more. This then becomes the "more" in the whole of all that is possible.
(Gaiad Theory)

When we actualize from these beliefs, what might happen?  Surely it beats the killer, taker  Mad Max nihilism of our old ways? 

Embracing, accepting and respecting  the whole of life, will dissolve the power of the bogeyman. I suspect that deep down inside, we all know this.. 

deborah j barnes

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

World by Numbers

Photo collage from 9/22/14 
An homage to the Fall Equinox -everything dies so that everything lives

Numbers are a great tool.  Numbers enhance the human tool kit and through numbers we learned analytical  and relationship concepts.  But then along the way something very absurd happened. Step by rational step, numbers gained importance over other means of seeing, thinking, divining, intuiting, knowing.  We as a species started understanding the world from a self defining aka constricting-window of all that is true and possible.

By focusing on numbers we started to disregard the subtle nuances of our sensual realities. Numbers, like words, are abstracts of mind, useful yes,...but they are not the actual "thing" itself.  I think it is time to remind us of this obvious and yet veiled notion, for it influences what what we create and set into being..

The more we believe in the tool, the more we actualize to fit the tool. ("we actualize our beliefs " A Goswami) Think how apps are made for cell phones and the more we rely on them the more necessary they become.  We are  addicted, chained bribed into utilizing this tool. This is bondage. The better to screw you m'dear! (Nothing are a market statistic, a digit in the target audience, a dot on the graph)

The corporate application of technology is to enhance their bottom lines. Bottom lines reduce reality to numbers.

This is a coercing force causing dependency on things we have to constantly upgrade. IF this isn't addiction..? Opting out, saying no, effectively culls one from the herd. Entrapment by any other name...

This nifty simulated reality is causing harm!What i was taught to see as the price of progress i now understand to be mere justificsation. I am calling this out!

 Male archetype thinking adapts, mutates but cannot "birth" leaps.

 It is the feminine archetype that gives new life and therefore it is the feminine that is necessary for great leaps in evolution, creativity and no doubt the quantum physical aspect here is feminine too!.

Is this the missing link? Quantum, evolutional, creative leaps are all ancient and yet mystically new in the matter of "serious" research. I suspect this feminine leap ability has been rescuing "life" for a very long time. In a conscious application of mind and matter, might we create these feminine archetype heros to lead us from our old ways and begin our next journey?  Yes.

So though numbers have allowed us to define ourselves ever more in ways that can be counted, measured, worked into formulas that  provide satisfying solutions and allow us to feel in control they  limit our conceptual arenas. Though we point to them proudly and say the world works by the numbers, it is only a belief. No matter how gratifying this might feel, it is a small part of all truth, all that is possible. 

I have the formula for figuring odds in mind here. Though it may be valid for a machine gambling device as it too is man made, in the world of all possibilities it is an insult.

Einstein couldn't convince his peers that " the energy (E) in a system (an atom, a person, the solar system) is equal to its total mass (m) multiplied by the square of the speed of light (c, equal to 186,000 miles per second)."  from the Guardian until he hired a mathematician to write the formula, so he could publish..

Apparently no matter how useful or brilliant an idea, somewhere along the way we were taught to believe that without a mathematical language to illustrate ii, .the idea was useless and/or questionable.

But give it that formula and that same idea can become the holy grail of progress.

Silly humans- as the tool became ever more the master, as accountants counted and the numbers grew they mesmerized the culture and helped create the myths of our current era.  It is time to let them go for they have had their day, we learned and are grateful for the gifts delivered and now the time has come for the new ideas to bloom. It is simply life.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

It's the Story (3) When Love Stops the Fear

Card from my pick during one of the  "Let it Go" Sales. 
This has been a remarkable experience because of the wonderful people i have met this summer. Through them i am encouraged and realize that we are changing and moving away from the stories, patterns, and thoughts that have caged us. We are breaking free from the delusions.

So what now? How? 

I think it is time to go back and unroll the tapes, read the story pulses and start to clarify that "self" we hold dear.

From the initial birth event of shock and change to the conscious "I am here, trusting and alive, we are taping! From  "hi world, good to meet you," onwards.

We naturally reach out to explore, experience, play and resonate with love.We awaken to our senses and recognize the "self" in the whole of life. Yippee!

Then it happens. Mom/Dad or other significant other  is late with the milk.  Discomfort sets in and can lead to panic and panic starts the freak out. ( akin to fear of the Great Mother-C Jung)

The first fear is recorded and the pain channel starts hi-jacking some of our energy. Hurt leads to thoughts of avoidance, we begin building walls and defense modules -all the places demons love- we learn to proceed with caution.

From the unfiltered infant tapes, to the later stories where X happened, we are recording. Now it is time to go in and edit. It is time to free the beautiful, vibrant, loving bits from the clutter of all that footage!

This is how we can reclaim our "authentic spirit/heart being, doing selves." Let's unroll those memory tapes and start the personal (and cultural) editing process.

When the cause and effect of our old stories can be realized and better understood, we can check them against our current knowledge and  decide for ourselves which ones should be kept and which ones can be released.

 Change the story, change the path and see what appears.

I believe our new journey will free us from some "old self' behaviors that got in the way.  Our illusional anchors will dissolve as they were attached to stories we are leaving behind.

Intentionally releasing the stories will free up energy so that we can channel the flow into healthier, more joyful and loving experiences. 

This is who we are.

Fear chased love away, now love can overcome the is the solution.

Monday, August 25, 2014

It's the Story Part 2

Heartline Hand Vest worn here by her happy new caretaker.
& .she wears it so well!
thank you

 It's the Story -2

Protecting the self has been with our species (and others) since the dawn of consciousness. This relates to our personal births and to the whole of the population. Becoming aware of an "i am" means to be aware of a self both vulnerable and powerful.

With awareness came an expansion of  possibilities and the realization of having something to lose. It got personal really quick!

Survival of the fittest and similar thinking comes from a long ago place in "wake up" history. It served us for a time but is no longer appropriate. Now we have the capacity to understand that everything is connected to everything else and that in this "higher" vision, we are truly one.

The higher ground concept came from a battle scene, according to M Kaku in the book "Hyperspace."  The gang who took the hill had the ability to see the battle in a way those on the ground could not. What appeared as chaos in the midst, was seen as actions in need of orchestrating from the high ground vantage point. This allowed the hilltop gang  to create strategic next steps.

As we are simultaneously unique. wonderful "selfs" and "not" this can be a brain shake. Getting my head around this (and other) quirky juxtaposition- being simultaneously an individual and a part of the whole at once-  is  something that gets better with practice. I know this from shifts and then voila!

As we have the power to actualize our beliefs (a derivative of quantum physics -The observer affects the observation) and when this energy aligns with the juxtapose we can and will influence matter to manifest for the good of the "me" that is also the "us."  This extends to all of life on this planet and in tune with a living uni-verse (the vital energy connection). So why not go big in this new way? This is truly a next step responsible, loving, inclusive, healthy vision of power. This is Happy Place!

But dreaming isn't activating and i think we really have to rev up with that action stuff.

So saying  "...... we need a new story. It is hard to release the old one until a new one appears." (from "It's the Story" part one)

This is where it gets tricky. We usually don't recognize our acute abilities to dodge.  The "imaginary possible threats" are seen as real and justified from the aspect of tour old story that told us to run for cover or plan to fight. As one real and  imminent threat can became the source of many perceived threats it can appear to be wiser to be "safe" than "sorry."This is not fully true.

Superimpositions that color our lenses and distort true vision are part of our human OS.  Now that we are stuck to a past that cannot embrace the whole of life, we have to get bold and expand our reach and our smarts.

We have to utilize all of our new knowledge in order to weave a new story and upgrade our brains. The machine metaphor stops here. When we reboot the process must include total body awareness, hyper connectivity to all vital energy and instll a heightened sensual appreciation as ours has been  tarnished over the duration of "pure" rationalism.

This means we need brilliant threads from across all the fields and disciplines, cultures and traditions, stores, lore and myths.. We need to embrace that which appears as chaos and realize that this unruliness is vital and only appears to be scary  because we have not reached our "higher" ground.

In the course of change, we can start by knowing  that many of the stories that are  "us"  are faulty. As these flawed tales screw with our lives and are, i believe, inductive as to why change can appear to be difficult, even when ostensibly for the better, we just have to get in and clean up the mess.

In the vast territory of those many unknowns, possible dangers lurk. This means we need stories to shed light on these "new places"  Otherwise the  bogey men in our heads prowl at will in the dark of our imaginations.

This must be why and how fear based cultures-like ours-  survive. (And as entrepreneurial as our species is, many have used this fear thinking as a source of profit, wiring the belief into all aspects of current power tripping)  At this level of thinking it appears to be sensible  to stay on the course with the herd than to dare to leap into that unknown abyss. Hey this place sucks, but that place could be even worse than this place.

Okay, this is all brain twisting and iffy, full of that darkness that cloaks shadows and demons -so why even go there?

No crossing the boundary, no risking of punishment, limb loss or verbal attacks, fewer threats of wildy mysteriosos, all this has a certain appeal. The idea of the known makes us feel in control. Even if we have made a mess, many just adjust their caps and focus on the shallows, while preening at their ability to move crumbs.

To further this 'security of knowns" we collect piles of data and repeat patterns that we adjust and call progress in order to fulfill the expectations of the story we hold near and dear. Numbers make us feel good.

Yes that story of civilization  as a linear expression of "we done good." has a lot of appeal. We are adept at making our wrongness look "right." Bring on the editors, the entertainers and the fireworks, as long as we ignore the demons..we are ust fine.

We have designed such elegant landscapes and charming paths. We have set goals, designed vast systems and lengthy formulas, we pretend to this security of crowds and blaspheme the non- believers. The story rules and we WILL prove it.

Until that day we wake up in the place where the monsters are in our faces.. All the hidden demons have grown  large and unruly, protected by the shadows we dared not investigate too closely.  Now we are forced to acknowledge the larger picture. We are there.

A story that started out to organize and protect us can no longer serve. The story that helped us build cities, rockets, atom smashers and lasar tools is now dueling the things we fear the most.  we need to drag it kicking and screaming into the light. We need to lift the veil of fear that covers half the realm of all that is possible in Free Choice. The ghosts and fears of our stories are as teachers. The monsters are just personality aspects that need facing. This is so do-able!

Thursday, August 21, 2014

It's Not Us-It'sThe Story!

 Cotton jacket made from pattern taken from a vintage piece. Hand dyed and painted. Dead trees symbolic to fashionRIP Project m, butterflies all transtion, metamorphosis and hope..

The stories we hold in our minds (and bodies)  build up and frame our sense of "self."

We are huge collections of feelings, thoughts, experiences; all wired together with stories of who we believe ourselves to be. This becomes who we "are."

These story collages can be helpful or they can spill out and cloud the NEW moment. This is probably why we repeat things until we change the thinking that created the problem.

If it looks like a horse and moves like a horse it must be a horse..but no, it could be a zebra or a mystical unicorn.

Our stories can be very helpful. It is great that we can get home without having to memorize the route every day. It is way cool that we can maintain friendships and math formulas.

But when it comes to recognizing the gift in the moment, these 'stories"  can just get in the way. They can be saboteurs of experience, emotional hijackers - damn, they can be liars and thieves. They cover us in assumptions, with thinking that hauls up the past or plans for the future. They can keep us from being present in the now.

This is really a pertinent issue in relationships and can totally screw us over.

As relationships are the heart and soul, the embodiment of the whole individualized, they are the crux of realizing self. This means we  can help each other see potential and open the range of collective possibilities or we can freak from a past experience, show our hackles and/or  dodge, seek comfort and avoid going 'there" again.

Fear pushes away love and the honest, open trusting communication we need in order to step up into potential and to really thrive.

This is why we need a new story. It is hard to release the old one until a new one appears.As this has to do with fear of change, I will continue it in part 2.

I recently realized my fictional character, the Ice Queen was "me." This came from a source totally out of context but hit me straight on. I often use my intellect as a shield and as a way to freeze my emotional self. This aligns me with the old story, for i was told that my feelings did not matter, my thinking did. (Prof at SCCC in a world history class)

Rational, reasonable  "professional" behavior has been at the fore of our systems construct. As this idea goes way back to the Greeks, who feared the emotional, passionate energies, the chaos of nature and women, it appears  "right."

Appearances can be deceiving and our "wrong" emotions are there for a reason. It is time to clarify and heal this misunderstanding.

Anyway,. i did not see this aspect of the Ice Queen coming.  I thought of her as a great visual metaphor for coming to terms with global warming. I saw her melting in correlation with the exposure of lies in the cultural story and as a representative of self in the feminine. Sent in to unravel the cultural myths that helped me explore my own stories, she shined her light on me.

Segue- This is why art matters.

As my fashionRIP Project experiment continues, The Journey to the Center of Being has become more than a script  "out there" It is now proving to be a relevant part of my personal path.

This simultaneity is intriguing... .. to be cont.

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Born of Stars

 When we learn to see differently, what we see changes.

"We are born of stars" (M Kaku)  and filled with stars.

That sparkly, twinkle sensation that emanates from the cells in your body are they not like stars?  That aliveness is the vital energy that moves us and through us all.

I feel it best when i lie still after morning exercises stretches-yoga and pilates.  Feeling one's own aliveness helps us connect to the whole flow of life itself. I believe it one door through which we can experience our relationship to the whole living planet, uni-verse and...?

Vital energy is in the very music of string theory, it shows up as the vibration that hums through our bodies, our "personal ecosystems" and beyond, way, way beyond.

If you close your eyes; where do you end? You feel boundary sensations only where you touch "other" or that which appears as matter not you.” How cool is that?  Thank you Steve Ross for pointing this out.

This was new to me, as i had been taught to view my body in machine like terms. (or as a sexual “object”- that divisioning for hierarchical thinking-again)

All that huff and puff aerobic stuff, the weight lifting the exercise for muscle tone, weight loss and or heart health, sexual desirability, the focus was all about performance and measurable results.  I wasn't taught to value my "being" or celebrate my body as a glorious piece in the whole of "physical matter."

Why so?

I have a cousin who is a math prof. He is in town to do tenure fulfillment obligations. I asked him about this and he told me he was working on an app for statistics. In this process he is figuring out a way to condense data to fit the platform aka play with the numbers to oblige the new "tool!"

This is precious!

First we create the tool and then through market agenda, memes and other influences, that "tool" takes over and becomes a "ruler" of thought.  Then we cater to the tool, we design for it, we extoll its virtues and scoff at those without the newest "tools." 
This example of interactivity between what we create and conscious application apparently slides under the radar in the guise of "progress” aka not to be questioned!

However, what can we learn from this rather silly and insatiable quest?

One answer:
We are living in a world that we are designing. So now let us design the world we really want to live in.

Even those who think they benefit from the design of the old story are hurting. They too are trapped and arrested by the concepts that are destroying the diversity of choice probabilities.” Living in this story manifests as a shrinking down spiral.

Every loss in diversity equates to a loss in health. (We are ecosystems, we co evolved with the whole of the planet’s ecosystems, we are connected, therefore trashing the planet’s systems is suicidal behavior) The next loop in the spiral down creates even more self-limiting beliefs as more choices seem to dry up. The pattern is obvious and need not, should not be followed. This is not acceptable behavior!

It does, however, show that we have power and that our beliefs set that power in motion. Ok then, now let us take this knowledge and act responsibly like the maturing, conscious species we like to think we are. 

 One way is to re imagine what we think to be of value. What is really valuable?
What about exploring underappreciated resources and questioning the hand me down concepts, we are encouraged to "own." and to propagate?  These kinds of questions can open us up to new choices.

New choices manifest new actions and more new choices "appear." This is an expanding or  upward spiral, this is freedom.

It is time to recognize that we as the user of tools, should not be the pawn of the toolmakers-no matter how high tech the bluff. We can overcome our walls and boundaries, once we see through them.

We are capable. We are powerful. When we align our power, our vital energy to whole of wellbeing, connect to love and drop the reins of fear..i believe we will see the dawn of that new day.

After all- we are born of stars and are filled with the same amazing energy as the stars.

The  “Blue Stars” in fabric, photo picture above were inspired by  the enigmatic relationship between Patti Smith and Robert Mapplethorpe. (Just Kids)  What if co creative tension supports a next paradigm dynamic. One where chaos and confusion, a love/fear  balance sparks imaginal cells in a space where true equals balance between love and fear? 

Later Gator.....

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Happy Trails

 Hand painted, beaded, sequined and embroidered 
Cowboy n Can can skrt detail

Yesterday, my Cowboy n Can Can skirt left in the tattooed arms of a happy excited young woman.This is the stuff of joy. She and her friend both got it -the skirt and the aesthetics.

While i m at it, thanks and kudos to the patient young man and the quixotic eared, charming pit bull who waited on the porch. He pitched in with some funds when the women came up a bit short. I suspect great mutuality here, the share and movement of resources that speaks to the next ideal.

I feel so good about people  at these times and know we will make it through this irresponsible old quack paradigm. The wings are beginning to flutter.

While discussing fit and other measuring things we had a nice chat about the myths of western culture, especially those phallic obsessed Greeks and the dissing of the feminine. She -of the skirt- pointed me to the story of Zuess's  birth and the destruction of the original feminine  i suspect it relates to the "early tapes" that Carl Jung alludes to in the Fear of the Great Mother. I love putting these pieces together, seeing how they fit and why knowing it will free us from their tangled chains.

This is all heady stuff, moving towards this co-creative future, where no one gender needs to lord it over, manipulate or fear the "other." All power plays are fear activated no..? So feeling this "next' validated helps me stay on the path. Ha, like a pinball wizard, i see things light up when the ideas  hit the right spots.

As this moving sale aligns with the reFashion Hub project, i get to easily segue and promote the newest phase of fashionRIP Project. Teachers, wanna be sewers, general good will huggers and interested "do something whens" are rolling in, changing tides.

The healing is on.

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Letting Go

 Indoor "Moving Sale" as Social Activism

Selling most everything i own is a strange experience, one that is really teaching me about my own gullible response to those market voices. I am sorting out all the things that i once thought valuable and am realizing again and again, how value is relative, how taste and market value changes and why that is and was a silly way to "spend" so much time aka energy. What was i thinking when i bought that dress or made that jacket to wear it once or twice and then let it hang there in a closet for years.

The up side is that my custom garb and the vintage collection i built has a kind of ongoing appeal that can nimbly by pass the "trend" at least somewhat.

At the same time i am hoping others will love, buy and take home this array of items,  wear these garments and help me make space for a new path in life. So what is that in an ethical format?

Once again i meet the infamous juxtapose, yes; for as i am passing these items forward, i am keeping a bit of fast fashion at bay. I am also getting to talk a lot about the ReFashion Hub and how we can re imagine the meanings of value and redefine who we are as a people and thus re-arrange the values of the culture and SOS before we totally singe our wings.

I am getting ever more aware as to how the  mainstream media continues to influence the population in both the subtle (Antique Roadshow) and obvious ( _____makes your life FUN) which has me wondering why these forces cannot be turned to face the oncoming train wreck humanity has created?  At what length of self dupe will we as a species go to "save face?"  When we could simply derail the mindset that is setting up this greatest of crashes and leap that fate!

Like what is tat old think win?? I do not understand the inability to say oops? It must hold a fear for "power" which then says our leaders of fate are not equipped for the roles they have.  If that is the case, then that means, by golly;  it is truly up to each and every one of us to take the time to reflect and review what it is we are thinking, doing and believing. It is time to drop the tether that power contrives, forgive the ignorance, fear and pettiness and reconfigure the path.  A little contemplative, deconstructing of the facade will do us all wonders & then we just might be that kind of wonderful!~

OK i get told how every generation had its big "issue" and we are still here on this Earth, but that falls into the "we are eating this processed faux food and we are still alive"  category and all the other justification responses that people like to toss out and yes, what we have is a result of what we believed to be true and ya da da.

I am not impressed with this, I am annoyed that the media and the technology we have is used more often to continue the crazy economic led nonsense we are pushed to enable, then it is to invigorate the changes we really need. For we need to better understand the whole of  connected beingness, the interrelated natural systems and how the flow of energy impacts consciousness and...For it is here that our true wealth and inheritance abides. 

Today, as i see Seattle being bulldozed to empower urban density with its faux sustainable and green living projects aka the "new" tenements for a "million new neighbors." (thnxs SoundTransit for that set up to manifest) I ask why crows are more agressive, why no bugs run from uplifted stones, why i haven't seen a grasshopper in years?

Why are people being jived to build rain gardens to offset the concrete and keep some toxic runoff from Puget Sound? ( A body of water already polluted)  Yeah, that'll do it.. Really?  Do these people just not speak to each other or what?

So i am not so very impressed. I am thinking we can and must do better than this (Dr Suess) I am thinking if Mother Trees can send healing nutrients to other species , even a valley away and if the 4th generation of Monarch Butterfly can live 9 times longer than the previous 3, then as human conscious so called "intelligent " beings...we can do a lot better than we are and have done up until now.

I think we can believe we can do better and then we will, that is just applied quantum physics.